Today's Readings and Stuff -- Thursday. 31 August 2017 very slightly modified
VERY late today on this. I woke up this morning with quite a lot in mind, and some things that I wanted to say, but they just were not quite "there". During the day, they -- these things -- drew off and left me hanging. Perhaps a wiser person would have a better handle on things, and perhaps these things just aren't quite "ripe" yet. Not certain.
We stayed around the house today, she's apparently into a "flare", the accepted term in the field for when one's autoimmune disease(s) pop up and make themselves more known than at other times. I'd feared what was going on was a recurrence of the nasty sinus-infection-verging-on-pneumonia that she'd just come out of, but she believes it's a lupus flare. She wants to try to restart her weekly Humira injections tomorrow, so we shall see.
As a few people know, while I was born not too far from where I'm sitting now, I never ever felt it to be "home" in the way that normal people apparently do. I may be colorblind in that spectrum or it may be one of my numerous character defects / weirdnesses. Don't know. While I lived a few hundred miles from here in my very early 20's, I didn't really care for that place either. So when circumstances combined to take us -- me and the family -- far out of the area for 22 years, I felt better. And, for about the first time in my life, I felt happy about where I was. When circumstances combined to bring us back to the general area, that left.
And yet ..... as I told our church back there when they had a bit of a going-away service for us, I felt that the move here was not a retreat, but an advance on where we were supposed to be. Not a retreat in defeat. I have occasionally lost a bit of that attitude and determination, but it is still there. The Lord knows full well where we are, and I am convinced that this is part of His plan and will. Yes, it can be very comforting to be living in the "Bible Belt" regions of the country, which is by no means descriptive of where we now reside. Anything but, though there are parts of the country where that is even less the case. But if we were still there, to a great extent we'd simply be lolling around, enjoying the fruits of other people's efforts at outreach and evangelism. And, most likely, not contributing very much to the advance of the Kingdom. It's taking me a while, too long really, to even begin to understand that.
I don't know, yet, what I am supposed to be doing in that effort. I am not a particularly pastoral person, though while in the role I did try to carry out the duties of a deacon. I am not a evangelist type, never have been. So I'm not sure what the role and responsibilities are for me. But I believe firmly that the Lord has something in mind, He never makes mistakes.
The first step is to commit fully to follow His lead and will. That is a lot like signing a blank check, something that most of us are understandably reluctant to do, having been let down by those humans we once thought trustworthy. And, yes, following Him can be an adventure. The history is pretty clear on that at least.
So we shall see. Lots of inward gazing right now.
And we are winding down the last hours of August. Lord willing, in a few hours we will have entered into the month of September. There are those who love Autumn. I am not one of them, and have never been. Living in the deep South, it wasn't so bad, because the Winter season following was also not so bad. Here, particularly given the predictions of the bitterly cold and severe winter season advancing on us, it's bad. REAL bad. Too bad Global Warming is utter nonsense, one of history's biggest frauds and lies. Hard to be charitable about it when the temperature is -15°F, the water pipes are frozen, the door may be frozen shut (we had that a few times the winter before last), and the gas and electric companies are threatening to turn the services off for non-payment. Which we've gotten VERY close to several times.
So that is also on my mind. Shouldn't be, probably, but it is.
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The Old Testament reading for the day (and, again, sorry for the late hour) is Psalms 145. 146., and 147. (Incidentally, tomorrow is schedule to be the final episode in the year's passage through the Psalms)
Psalm 146
Psalm 147
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The New Testament passage is verses 1-15 of chapter 11 of 1st Corinthians.
Paul makes a statement in verse 1 that I would fear to make. And yet ... if people want to know what Jesus is like, they should be able to look at us and to see Him. That's rather scary, and I know that I fall far short on that. Yet that is our "reasonable service".
Much of the rest of this is also tricky. I can't remember the last time that I hear sermons and lessons on these subjects. Land mines and quicksand there.
I Corinthians 11:1-15