07 April 2011

Today -- 07 April 2011

This has been a wild ride lately. Dear Wife is, fortunately, out of the hospital. She went in to see the cardiologists the next day, they put her through a "nuclear stress test" series. Took her the entire next day to recover from that. Still has to go see the gastroenterologist in two weeks, the earliest she could get in, because she probably does have a gall bladder, possible gallstones issue, on top of the heart damage that the heart work is indicating. It may mean a tough time ahead.

Meanwhile, we got a note from an old friend we haven't seen in several years. We knew Brenda when we lived in Tennessee (the first time) and knew her husband Kenny as well. Kenny had a bad heart, died waiting for a transplant which never happened, leaving her with two teenage kids by his first wife. Tough time to say the least. The kids are grown and gone and OK I guess. She moved to another state and remarried. Now he's sick, unable to work, in the hospital as of yesterday, and she just lost her job. I think they've Been Through It, and need prayers on their behalf. And a new job would be nice too. As would a miraculous healing for Stan.

I really don't like the world we're living in,, not very much.

This morning's reading is chapters 20 and 21 of the Judges.

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Then all the children of Israel went out, and the congregation was gathered together as one man, from Dan even to Beersheba, with the land of Gilead, unto the LORD in Mizpeh.
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And the chief of all the people, even of all the tribes of Israel, presented themselves in the assembly of the people of God, four hundred thousand footmen that drew sword.
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(Now the children of Benjamin heard that the children of Israel were gone up to Mizpeh.) Then said the children of Israel, Tell us, how was this wickedness?
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And the Levite, the husband of the woman that was slain, answered and said, I came into Gibeah that belongeth to Benjamin, I and my concubine, to lodge.
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And the men of Gibeah rose against me, and beset the house round about upon me by night, and thought to have slain me: and my concubine have they forced, that she is dead.
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And I took my concubine, and cut her in pieces, and sent her throughout all the country of the inheritance of Israel: for they have committed lewdness and folly in Israel.
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Behold, ye are all children of Israel; give here your advice and counsel.
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And all the people arose as one man, saying, We will not any of us go to his tent, neither will we any of us turn into his house.
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But now this shall be the thing which we will do to Gibeah; we will go up by lot against it;
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And we will take ten men of an hundred throughout all the tribes of Israel, and an hundred of a thousand, and a thousand out of ten thousand, to fetch victual for the people, that they may do, when they come to Gibeah of Benjamin, according to all the folly that they have wrought in Israel.
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So all the men of Israel were gathered against the city, knit together as one man.
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And the tribes of Israel sent men through all the tribe of Benjamin, saying, What wickedness is this that is done among you?
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Now therefore deliver us the men, the children of Belial, which are in Gibeah, that we may put them to death, and put away evil from Israel. But the children of Benjamin would not hearken to the voice of their brethren the children of Israel.
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But the children of Benjamin gathered themselves together out of the cities unto Gibeah, to go out to battle against the children of Israel.
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And the children of Benjamin were numbered at that time out of the cities twenty and six thousand men that drew sword, beside the inhabitants of Gibeah, which were numbered seven hundred chosen men.
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Among all this people there were seven hundred chosen men lefthanded; every one could sling stones at an hair breadth, and not miss.
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And the men of Israel, beside Benjamin, were numbered four hundred thousand men that drew sword: all these were men of war.
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And the children of Israel arose, and went up to the house of God, and asked counsel of God, and said, Which of us shall go up first to the battle against the children of Benjamin? And the LORD said, Judah shall go up first.
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And the children of Israel rose up in the morning, and encamped against Gibeah.
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And the men of Israel went out to battle against Benjamin; and the men of Israel put themselves in array to fight against them at Gibeah.
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And the children of Benjamin came forth out of Gibeah, and destroyed down to the ground of the Israelites that day twenty and two thousand men.
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And the people the men of Israel encouraged themselves, and set their battle again in array in the place where they put themselves in array the first day.
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(And the children of Israel went up and wept before the LORD until even, and asked counsel of the LORD, saying, Shall I go up again to battle against the children of Benjamin my brother? And the LORD said, Go up against him.)
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And the children of Israel came near against the children of Benjamin the second day.
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And Benjamin went forth against them out of Gibeah the second day, and destroyed down to the ground of the children of Israel again eighteen thousand men; all these drew the sword.
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Then all the children of Israel, and all the people, went up, and came unto the house of God, and wept, and sat there before the LORD, and fasted that day until even, and offered burnt offerings and peace offerings before the LORD.
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And the children of Israel inquired of the LORD, (for the ark of the covenant of God was there in those days,
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And Phinehas, the son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, stood before it in those days,) saying, Shall I yet again go out to battle against the children of Benjamin my brother, or shall I cease? And the LORD said, Go up; for to morrow I will deliver them into thine hand.
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And Israel set liers in wait round about Gibeah.
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And the children of Israel went up against the children of Benjamin on the third day, and put themselves in array against Gibeah, as at other times.
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And the children of Benjamin went out against the people, and were drawn away from the city; and they began to smite of the people, and kill, as at other times, in the highways, of which one goeth up to the house of God, and the other to Gibeah in the field, about thirty men of Israel.
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And the children of Benjamin said, They are smitten down before us, as at the first. But the children of Israel said, Let us flee, and draw them from the city unto the highways.
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And all the men of Israel rose up out of their place, and put themselves in array at Baaltamar: and the liers in wait of Israel came forth out of their places, even out of the meadows of Gibeah.
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And there came against Gibeah ten thousand chosen men out of all Israel, and the battle was sore: but they knew not that evil was near them.
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And the LORD smote Benjamin before Israel: and the children of Israel destroyed of the Benjamites that day twenty and five thousand and an hundred men: all these drew the sword.
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So the children of Benjamin saw that they were smitten: for the men of Israel gave place to the Benjamites, because they trusted unto the liers in wait which they had set beside Gibeah.
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And the liers in wait hasted, and rushed upon Gibeah; and the liers in wait drew themselves along, and smote all the city with the edge of the sword.
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Now there was an appointed sign between the men of Israel and the liers in wait, that they should make a great flame with smoke rise up out of the city.
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And when the men of Israel retired in the battle, Benjamin began to smite and kill of the men of Israel about thirty persons: for they said, Surely they are smitten down before us, as in the first battle.
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But when the flame began to arise up out of the city with a pillar of smoke, the Benjamites looked behind them, and, behold, the flame of the city ascended up to heaven.
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And when the men of Israel turned again, the men of Benjamin were amazed: for they saw that evil was come upon them.
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Therefore they turned their backs before the men of Israel unto the way of the wilderness; but the battle overtook them; and them which came out of the cities they destroyed in the midst of them.
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Thus they inclosed the Benjamites round about, and chased them, and trode them down with ease over against Gibeah toward the sunrising.
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And there fell of Benjamin eighteen thousand men; all these were men of valor.
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And they turned and fled toward the wilderness unto the rock of Rimmon: and they gleaned of them in the highways five thousand men; and pursued hard after them unto Gidom, and slew two thousand men of them.
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So that all which fell that day of Benjamin were twenty and five thousand men that drew the sword; all these were men of valor.
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But six hundred men turned and fled to the wilderness unto the rock Rimmon, and abode in the rock Rimmon four months.
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And the men of Israel turned again upon the children of Benjamin, and smote them with the edge of the sword, as well the men of every city, as the beast, and all that came to hand: also they set on fire all the cities that they came to.


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Now the men of Israel had sworn in Mizpeh, saying, There shall not any of us give his daughter unto Benjamin to wife.
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And the people came to the house of God, and abode there till even before God, and lifted up their voices, and wept sore;
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And said, O LORD God of Israel, why is this come to pass in Israel, that there should be to day one tribe lacking in Israel?
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And it came to pass on the morrow, that the people rose early, and built there an altar, and offered burnt offerings and peace offerings.
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And the children of Israel said, Who is there among all the tribes of Israel that came not up with the congregation unto the LORD? For they had made a great oath concerning him that came not up to the LORD to Mizpeh, saying, He shall surely be put to death.
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And the children of Israel repented them for Benjamin their brother, and said, There is one tribe cut off from Israel this day.
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How shall we do for wives for them that remain, seeing we have sworn by the LORD that we will not give them of our daughters to wives?
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And they said, What one is there of the tribes of Israel that came not up to Mizpeh to the LORD? And, behold, there came none to the camp from Jabeshgilead to the assembly.
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For the people were numbered, and, behold, there were none of the inhabitants of Jabeshgilead there.
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And the congregation sent thither twelve thousand men of the valiantest, and commanded them, saying, Go and smite the inhabitants of Jabeshgilead with the edge of the sword, with the women and the children.
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And this is the thing that ye shall do, Ye shall utterly destroy every male, and every woman that hath lain by man.
12
And they found among the inhabitants of Jabeshgilead four hundred young virgins, that had known no man by lying with any male: and they brought them unto the camp to Shiloh, which is in the land of Canaan.
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And the whole congregation sent some to speak to the children of Benjamin that were in the rock Rimmon, and to call peaceably unto them.
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And Benjamin came again at that time; and they gave them wives which they had saved alive of the women of Jabeshgilead: and yet so they sufficed them not.
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And the people repented them for Benjamin, because that the LORD had made a breach in the tribes of Israel.
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Then the elders of the congregation said, How shall we do for wives for them that remain, seeing the women are destroyed out of Benjamin?
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And they said, There must be an inheritance for them that be escaped of Benjamin, that a tribe be not destroyed out of Israel.
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Howbeit we may not give them wives of our daughters: for the children of Israel have sworn, saying, Cursed be he that giveth a wife to Benjamin.
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Then they said, Behold, there is a feast of the LORD in Shiloh yearly in a place which is on the north side of Bethel, on the east side of the highway that goeth up from Bethel to Shechem, and on the south of Lebonah.
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Therefore they commanded the children of Benjamin, saying, Go and lie in wait in the vineyards;
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And see, and, behold, if the daughters of Shiloh come out to dance in dances, then come ye out of the vineyards, and catch you every man his wife of the daughters of Shiloh, and go to the land of Benjamin.
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And it shall be, when their fathers or their brethren come unto us to complain, that we will say unto them, Be favorable unto them for our sakes: because we reserved not to each man his wife in the war: for ye did not give unto them at this time, that ye should be guilty.
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And the children of Benjamin did so, and took them wives, according to their number, of them that danced, whom they caught: and they went and returned unto their inheritance, and repaired the cities, and dwelt in them.
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And the children of Israel departed thence at that time, every man to his tribe and to his family, and they went out from thence every man to his inheritance.
25
In those days there was no king in Israel: every man did that which was right in his own eyes.




This evening, verses 1-28 of Luke chapter 11.

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And it came to pass, that, as he was praying in a certain place, when he ceased, one of his disciples said unto him, Lord, teach us to pray, as John also taught his disciples.
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And he said unto them, When ye pray, say, Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, as in heaven, so in earth.
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Give us day by day our daily bread.
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And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us. And lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil.
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And he said unto them, Which of you shall have a friend, and shall go unto him at midnight, and say unto him, Friend, lend me three loaves;
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For a friend of mine in his journey is come to me, and I have nothing to set before him?
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And he from within shall answer and say, Trouble me not: the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give thee.
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I say unto you, Though he will not rise and give him, because he is his friend, yet because of his importunity he will rise and give him as many as he needeth.
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And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
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For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
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If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent?
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Or if he shall ask an egg, will he offer him a scorpion?
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If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?
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And he was casting out a devil, and it was dumb. And it came to pass, when the devil was gone out, the dumb spake; and the people wondered.
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But some of them said, He casteth out devils through Beelzebub the chief of the devils.
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And others, tempting him, sought of him a sign from heaven.
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But he, knowing their thoughts, said unto them, Every kingdom divided against itself is brought to desolation; and a house divided against a house falleth.
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If Satan also be divided against himself, how shall his kingdom stand? because ye say that I cast out devils through Beelzebub.
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And if I by Beelzebub cast out devils, by whom do your sons cast them out? therefore shall they be your judges.
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But if I with the finger of God cast out devils, no doubt the kingdom of God is come upon you.
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When a strong man armed keepeth his palace, his goods are in peace:
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But when a stronger than he shall come upon him, and overcome him, he taketh from him all his armour wherein he trusted, and divideth his spoils.
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He that is not with me is against me: and he that gathereth not with me scattereth.
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When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest; and finding none, he saith, I will return unto my house whence I came out.
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And when he cometh, he findeth it swept and garnished.
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Then goeth he, and taketh to him seven other spirits more wicked than himself; and they enter in, and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first.
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And it came to pass, as he spake these things, a certain woman of the company lifted up her voice, and said unto him, Blessed is the womb that bare thee, and the paps which thou hast sucked.
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But he said, Yea rather, blessed are they that hear the word of God, and keep it.

05 April 2011

Today's Brief Note

This has been a difficult few days.
Saturday, after working all night, I grabbed a few hours of nap time, then Dear Wife and I had some breakfast and then set out for the Wally World to pick up a few necessities on the regular weekend run. Came home, put stuff away, took another hour or so nap. I got up and mowed lawn while she started fixing some dinner for us. And then she became ill. VERY ill, shades of heart attack ill.
Into the car, off to the E.R. Good hospital, good staff, good everything. To make a very long story a bit less so, they decided it might be angina, but was not a heart attack. But they wanted to admit her. So I called pastor at church, told him I wouldn't be there to help in the morning, and settled down to an uncomfortable watch in a semi-reclining chair by her bedside. With nurses coming in every two hours to give her more pain meds, take here temperature and B.P.,check the telemetry on all the gauges and things they had her hooked up to, and all of that. I left around noon, got a friend to sit with her while I ran home to get a short (about 3 hours) nap. And something to eat, since I hadn't since noon the day before. And ten went back to the hospital until visiting hours ended. Went home, DIED. Got up in the morning and went back, stayed until around noon, came home to get a brief nap and get ready for another night shift. She called, they were discharging her. I got a friend to go pick her up. While she was en route home, got call from the cardiologists. They want her in their office first thing this morning.
Upshot is she probably has gall bladder issue, probably including gall stones. But she probably ALSO has some heart issues, one being the very high "bad" cholesterol, which is a result of not having a thyroid any more. A result of the lupus.
I just worked all night on very little sleep and have to get some, now. We have someone who will drive her to the cardiologist's office in a few hours. For which I am most grateful
I love her very much. It is hard to see someone you love in terrible pain and suffering and a frightening sense of danger.
God is good, all the time, even when the circumstances aren't. I believe that. But sometimes it is hard to hang on to.

03 April 2011

Today -- 03 April 2011

this is a bit different

I am writing this from a reclining chair in a hospital room. We rushed Dear Wife into the ER yesterday afternoon suffering from terrible chest pains. It does not APPEAR to be a heart attack. It is probably angina, possibly related to the pleurisy she has been fighting lately, possibly also related to the lupus, which in her cases attacks things like the sac around the heart, the membrane around the lungs, and related types of mixed connective tissue. At this rate we have no good idea of the seriousness of the matter.
The storms of life are something we have known intimately for more than the near-23 years of our marriage and the few years of courtship preceding it. Such is our life, which does not make things easier. Knowing that the Lord is with you does make it POSSIBLE, which is saying quite a lot. So we are hopeful but obviously concerned.
Things around here may be a bit disjointed for a bit. Sorry about that.