I started this earlier today, and threw it all away. Wasn't right. Still may not be right, but perhaps this is closer.
Some days, I feel so close to the Lord, so wrapped up in Him, that I feel that I can almost hear His voice. Note, please, that I said "almost".
Other days, and the contrast is horrible, I feel like the greatest sinner and most vile person who ever lived and used up good oxygen.
It most often happens when I focus more on "stuff", and, frankly, ignore Him. As if my stuff was more important. That's not one of the "thou shalt not" items on the stone tablets, except by implication, but I need to act and think as if it were.
What I really need is a day or more of NOTHING but Him, NOTHING but prayer. Life being what it is, that's probably not going to happen real soon. I do sometimes envy the monks who live as hermits on top a a mountain, able to devote their entire life to prayer and study.
Now, I am also told that the Buddhist monks had found ways to be in meditation in the midst of their lives, and some of the martial arts were tied to this practice. I guess that if the Zen Buddhists can find a way, so can I. And I desperately need some intense prayer time, it's been frankly lacking and I can feel the difference.
Yes, it is all too easy to be caught up in the things of the world. Some aren't evil, as such, but they may be distractions from where I am supposed to be. And I'm probably not alone in that.
Our Old Testament reading today is Psalms 7, 8, and 9.
The "song of the day", a good one for any day, is "The Majesty and Glory of Your Name", straight out of Psalm 8. I've been privileged to be part of several choral groups in several states that did this, and it was one that almost always had a large section of both the choirs and the congregations with tears running down our faces. Me too.
Our New Testament passage is verses 1-15 in chapter 17 of the Acts of the Apostles.