Another day closer to Autumn, to Winter, to snow and cold and all of that. Another day closer to our wedding anniversary, to Dear Wife's birthday, to my birthday, to our older daughter's birthday, to the wedding anniversaries of both of our daughters. And another day closer to my dad's birthday and the anniversary of his passing, both of them within the next 45 days or so.
Lots and lots of memories, some good, and some less so.
So I've been in a pensive mood the last few days (more than usual, if you can believe it). Mid-afternoon yesterday I got hit with one of those awful sensations of terrible foreboding. Maybe it's low blood sugar or something, maybe it truly is a warning of something awful about to occur. I never really know, it has been both. Having had more than what I consider to be my fair share of the awful ones, I hate to dismiss it. But I'm not driving this bus, and no one gets out alive. And I know Who is driving the bus, so we shall see.
Yes, It Is Well With My Soul
I love that hymn. And, like so many others, there is a story behind it, circumstances that led to it. Here is that story.
The cats woke me at 04:30, wanting breakfast. Early, but a carryover from my working days, caught for several years in what was to have been a "short stint" on nights, meaning I got home at around 05:30 and would feed them before toppling into bed.
And, in that odd semi-woke semi-sleeping time drifting back and forth, an old song came into my head and just wouldn't leave. We sang it often in that country church of my childhood, but very VERY rarely since, for reasons I do not know.
Spirit of the Living God, Fall Fresh On Me.
Great song, and I considered it for a good while, and still am.
But, once you make such a plea to the Lord, there might be a response from Him. And? What will be your response? What will be your commitment? What if it leads you somewhere you don't want to go? And?? Are we, am I, willing to follow His will, whatever it is?? Or do I just want a great "experience", wanting to feel good about myself??
Our day's reading in the Old Testament is Psalms 90, 91, and 92.
Let us focus on the Lord, not on the circumstances, no matter how dire -- or good -- they might be. "Stayed upon Jehovah" is not just a good line in a good hymn, is is our direction.
Our New Testament passage now is verses 1-21 in chapter 11 of the Epistle to the Romans.
Paul's mission, the evangelist to the Gentiles, turned a lot of long-held beliefs on their heads.